Contradictions

I want to run, I want to stay
I want to be alone, I want to be surrounded
I want to hurt, I want to heal
I want this to end, I want to start over

I want to help, I want to tear down
I want to scream, I never want to speak again
I never want to heal, I want to carry these scars
I don't know where to go, I know exactly where I want to end up

I want to make everything better, I don't know where to begin
I want to live in this moment forever, I want to get on with life
I want to do more, I want to do nothing
I want to have a more exciting life, I want to listen to music all day

Life is full of contradictions,
Which do we choose?
Do we take the easy route?
Or do we take the path less traveled?

So many questions, so few answers
So much time ahead of us, so many quick decisions
Speeding through the best times, the easiest times
Just to have a couple more "freedoms"

Do we realize how good we have it?
How many more freedoms we have now?
Do you see your parents going out to the movies?
Or seeing friends 3+ times a week?

Kicking back, watching tv
Not a care in the world
Besides finishing some homework
Or missing your favorite show

We've got it so good right now
And it confuses me everyday
Why everyone wants to rush through the now
And wish all of these good times away